November holds special meaning for Yannick Paul. It’s his birth month and also the time he became a Christian 10 years ago.

Last year, as he prepared to celebrate his big day, the deejay/rapper fell into a dark place. One year later finds him in a better mood, but he reflects on that challenging time in November, his latest song.

“In 2023, around my birthday I fell into a deep depression, something that hasn’t hit that hard since 2014. On my birthday in 2014, I performed at a small event in Brooklyn (New York) and at that time I was singing about my newfound faith in Christ, while battling thoughts of suicide,” Paul disclosed. “The song is a reflection of my battle in 2014 and 2023, yet highlighting the fact that the Lord Jesus has rescued me from taking my own life due to His own resurrection and life in me.”

Paul is from Payne Land in Kingston. Before migrating to the United States in 2004, he was big into dancehall music, particularly Vybz Kartel.

While he found solace in Christ, the devil came calling one year ago.

“I’ve never spoken about this part of my life this openly and this real before. I wrote the song in November of 2023, in the middle of feeling dark and useless. I wrote this song when I felt like God had abandoned me and hasn’t forgiven me of past sins. That year I felt as if my walk with Him since 2014 was a waste and that I failed my wife, kids, family and friends. This song has helped me to really understand the love God has for me, and the love that my loved ones have for me in Christ Jesus,” he said.

– Howard Campbell