Kizzy Don breaks silence on baby Miracle’s death with ‘Therapy’
Emerging dancehall artiste Kizzy Don has broken her silence regarding the heart-wrenching death of her baby, Miracle.
She released a video for an emotionally charged song called Therapy that details the intense pain and pyschological struggles that she has endured since the much-publicised birth and death of her baby that she shared with fellow dancehall artiste Kiprich.
Since its release on Friday, the video has racked up over 27,000 views.
One of the most poignant lines in Therapy goes: ‘What did I do? I am living but I am confused”.
Kizzy explained that those words crystallise succinctly the emotional heartbreak and the intense, traumatic grief characterised by profound sadness, guilt, emptiness, and anger parents feel after the death of a child.
“Those lines are the most powerful for me, because that is my reality, I am constantly questioning the situation, what did I do? What did I do for this to happen to me and Kipo,” she told Observer Online.
The couple’s child, Miracle, was born prematurely after Kizzy developed complications after accompanying Kiprich to a gig in Colombia. Miracle clater died on January 29, reportedly of cardiac arrest at a hospital in Barranquilla, Colombia.
READ: Kiprich and Kizzy lose their newborn, Miracle
Even four months after the ordeal, Kizzy frequently cries, a rain of frustrated tears that descend on her without warning. This has affected her normally sunny personality and even tainted her interaction with fans in the public.
“I find myself crying a lot, I feel like I am not ready to engage with them, when I see them, I try to hide. I know they want to talk about it but I am so hurt about it, I don’t how to express myself,” she said.
She has been struggling to cope with the problem and has been attending regular therapy sessions to manage the trauma of the experience.
“I still don’t know how to open up about it. My mother is a strong, black woman, she only cried when she prayed to God, she always say ‘keep moving forward’, so that’s how I deal with it. My only coping mechanism is to “keep moving forward”,” Kizzy Don said.
Kizzy Don said that Kiprich played an instrumental role in penning the song and has been a wonderful partner in helping her to process the grief of Miracle’s death.
“I didnt even know how to do a song like this. When I heard the song, I hide and cry because I didn’t want Kipo to see me crying . He is trying to be strong for me so I don’t want to give off that energy., so when I want to cry, I have to go to the bathroom,” she said.
She shared that she is fighting to get over the ordeal and that is one of the reasons that she released the song.
“I don’t want to be crying everyday, I don’t want the household to be sad, because one person has to be strong. He is trying to get the fun side out of me, but it’s a struggle for me, but this song itself is a bit of therapy for me,” she explained.
Kizzy Don has an active and engaged social media base where she has developed 179,000 followers on Instagram and over 325,000 on Tik Tok. She hasn’t been as active in recent months.
“When I open the camera, I don’t know what to say,” she explained of her withdrawal from social media.
Kizzy Don and Kiprich plan to have another child soon, a move that she hopes will speed up her healing process.
“I am not going to truly heal until I get back another child. I feel like a part of me missing still because mi don’t hva the baby, so anytime , I get back a baby, I feel like I can try to look past things. I will feel better about the situation…I just want back a child,” she said.
In the meantime, the Therapy video continues to rack up impressive numbers. Fans weighed in on the track, praising the lyrics, song arrangement and emotional depth of the soundscape.
“This song touches the deepest parts of the soul….. it speaks the words many of us struggle to say out loud. Pain, healing, love, and strength all wrapped into one beautiful expression. Music like this reminds us that even when we feel alone, someone out there,” one user wrote.
Another fan chimed in: ‘Am I the only one crying? It’s like I can feel the pain somehow (hearts)…’
Others encouraged her to “keep healing baby girl”.